day 33

this is driving up grand.  at the end of may.  does something look strange? 

i'll give you a hint:  it should be GREEN not BROWN.

can you even believe the trees are STILL not green????

for all of you who live in normal places (HAHAHAHA) that have green trees in Summer - feel free to fly me out for a little vacay - but you're going to have to hurry, because i start work on monday...

 I'M SO SCARED!!!!!

i went in today to ask about some paperwork and online classes and days off (yes i know, i haven't even started and i'm asking for days off...just trying to stay on top of things!) and i told them (my however many bosses and supervisors i guess) how my mom said i should ride my bike to work and be really green.  which is a really good idea, except that work is 4 miles away and my bike only has one gear and it's a cruiser and it has a pink bell with hearts on it.  and i told my mom, "mom! no! they won't take me seriously if i show up riding a bike with a pink bell!" and my mom said "they won't take you seriously anyways"  and bones (who i guess is one of my bosses) said, "nope. definitely won't take you seriously anyways."  or something like that. 

and then another...boss...asked me if i was ready for monday, because we're doing a half marathon and a 12000 vertical foot hike for PT.  i was like "i'm so ready!! i even ran a mile and a half yesterday!!" he just looked at me...and then i left.

that's why i'm scared.  because i've been in there two or three times for whatever reasons, and i keep saying weird stuff, and i don't know if they just don't think it's funny, or don't know how to react or what.  but they probably just think i'm nuts. 

also i have this irrational fear (that i've had since i was small) that i won't make any friends....??????

the end.