35 weeks

2. jun

BABY'S SIZE     a pineapple!  17 to 18.5 inches long, and 4 to 5.5 pounds.

HOW I'M FEELING     mentally, i'm starting to realize that i will be a little sad if i have a girl or if i have a boy.  i was trying to explain it to arley.  it's like having a choose-your-own-adventure book.  before you start, you know that the story could go so many different ways.  i feel like i'm on page 11 and i can either go to page 42 or page 5.  and either way, i feel a little sad that i can only choose one, and won't be able to choose the other as well.  i don't think he really got it.  i don't know if i really get it.

WHAT I'M EATING     we should maybe just take this question out and always assume that it's cereal.

HOW I'M CHANGING     i feel like i can't grow another millimeter, and then i do.  i'm trying to do a squat challenge - the main challenge being trying to actually remember to do the squats that day - and i'm kind of failing.  but i think these preggie legs are getting at least a little stronger.  getting ready for my amazon woman birth.  hah!

MOVEMENT     this baby never slows down.  always a wiggle here, a kick there, and all the stretches in between.

SLEEP     sleep comes and goes.  i don't think i'll ever get used to having to wake up every three hours to pee.  although lots of babies like to eat about every three hours.  maybe my body is helping me practice getting short bursts of sleep...

THINGS THIS WEEK     the crazy dreams have begun.  it's taken a lot longer than i thought, because i have crazy dreams normally.  here are the latest ones:

working on a postpartum unit that is baby friendly, and therefore very much encourages breastfeeding, you can imagine that i have been feeling the pressure.  i super duper hope that baby and i know what to do.  so in my dream, i had a baby (it is not a boy or a girl, just a baby) that could not figure out how to latch on and nurse.  and every time it managed to swallow a drop of colostrum, it would throw up massively.
hand expression is a thing we promote at work (it helps bring in milk faster, it lets baby have a little free supplement if you catch it in a spoon and give it to baby, and ups your supply in the long run), and so after all that throwing up, i thought i should try to hand express some colostrum to feed my starving, barfing baby.  but when i started hand expressing, there was no colostrum, just squeezey cheese.  and even in my dream, i was so horrified, but it finally made sense as to why the baby was throwing up all over the place.

i'm still pregnant in this one.  i was showing everyone at work that you could see the outline of the baby's butt cheeks (that's what i was thinking in my dream).  one lady came over and opened the window and screamed, "IT'S A BOY!!"  i was so sad and i asked her why she would do that.  i told her i hadn't waited this long to spoil the surprise.  she said, "but sweetie, it's still a surprise!"  and i cried and cried (and was a little sad that it wasn't a girl).

LOOKING FORWARD TO     using my birthday massage gift certificate at a super duper fancy place next week!

FUN FACT     hearing is fully developed; baby responds best to high pitches noises.  most of baby's growth milestones are behind him/her, so this month is all about putting on fat.