i have this problem. of letting myself be vulnerable. and i know that can be a good thing, but it's sort of with the dwelling thing. i have a hard time setting boundaries with myself, of deciding when to draw the line.
and for me, vulnerability almost never ends well. very messy.
and for however long after every mess, i am kicking and kicking myself for putting myself in the same exact situation that i was in before, and that i said i wouldn't do again.
you might say that i am a slow learner.
i say that along with the dwelling, it also goes along with the trust issue. every next time i'm in the same situation, i completely forget the last time, and trust that it will end up better this time. no more mess.
i don't want to say that it's inevitable, becaue that would be pessimistic, but - it's kind of inevitable.
so i'm learning to forgive myself, and not blame myself in the first place, for letting myself be vulnerable.
what is life, if not to live? right? and if letting yourself be overly vulnerable and overly trusting from time to time means that i'm going to get the most out of my life, then i guess it's what i have to do. you can't stop living, and doing what you believe in, simply because of how it Might end...
just so you know, my mspace quiz isn't coming every day. it didn't say consecutive days in the rules, and i feel like all this seriousness might get a little crazy....
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