fur babies

oni is still a fatty, lazy bum (unless the back door opens - somehow she is lightning fast at escaping).  we've been letting her out during the day.  she doesn't last long in the winter, but she loves it.  she might not kill us for a few more years if she gets to go outside.

eda is still concerned.  she knows that "thing" means "walk," which is what we say so she won't lose it when we say walk.  thinking about changing the codeword to "cornbread."  want to go on a cornbread?

15 weeks

14. jan

BABY'S SIZE     a navel orange!  (4 inches, 2.5 ounces)

WEIGHT GAIN     maybe a couple pounds.  still hard to tell (especially weighing first thing, and then after a night of work...)

HOW I'M FEELING     better and better.  they say my hormones are going to level out and i won't be as crazy.  i'm telling you, i'm ready to be done with all the "why did you do that?" sending me into a daylong cry stuff.  i think arley is too.

WHAT I'M EATING     i ate mcdonald's on thursday, and can still feel the heartburn.  the one day i forgot to take my heartburn medicine.  boo.

HOW I'M CHANGING     my eczema is going crazy.  it's so.  awful.

MOVEMENT     nothing yet.

SLEEP     at my doctor's appointment i asked about sleeping on my back.  most things you read say by the second trimester, you should start sleeping on sides only.  and i normally do.  but i keep waking up on my back.  both the nurse and the doctor said if i was really serious about it, i could tape a tennis ball to my back...  i think i'll just sleep it out and see what happens.

FAVORITE THINGS THIS WEEK     the doppler couldn't find baby again, so another quick ultrasound.  just for the heart tones, nothing too exciting.  as soon as baby came up on the little screen arley's head was in the way.  so at least one of us got a good look.  baby's heart rate was 143.
also, i went to high tea with a bunch of girls from work to celebrate another girl's and my birthdays this month.  it was pretty fun and pretty fancy.  i'm making arley go back with me.  but in a while, so i don't get into the habit of drinking too much caffeine!

LOOKING FORWARD TO     in a couple more weeks we have the anatomy screen.  or something.  it's the ultrasound where we look at all the anatomy.  by that time baby is pretty proportional and looking like a baby instead of an alien.  a cute alien.  they'll probably give us a bunch more photos too.  yay!

FUN FACT     baby is probably hiccuping, and the legs are now longer than the little arms.

this is actually from 15 weeks and 3 days.  i had to since i barely ever dress up normal.  i do love my yogi pants.  ok, i'll confess:  those are totally yogi pants.  just with boots so they look fancier...

14 weeks

7. jan

BABY'S SIZE     a lemon!  (about 3.5 inches and 1.5 ounces)

WEIGHT GAIN     still hard to tell.  the scale is different every time i try.

HOW I'M FEELING     i think the nausea is mostly gone.  as long as i don't have an empty stomach.  the other morning at work, i think i went too long without any snacks.  when i got to the break room to grab my stuff to go home, i started heaving and heaving.  no throwing up (still!), just the real hard heaves.  gross.  as soon as i got some juice i was fine.  so i filled up on water and pretty much just chugged the whole way home.
the hormones are hitting hard this week.  everything is SO happy or SO angry or SO sad.  it's making me crazy.  i can just imagine how everyone around me feels.

WHAT I'M EATING     still loving cereal.  but eating mostly everything else too.  steak still doesn't sound good to me.

HOW I'M CHANGING     there is a definite pooch.  i feel like i'm going to barf every time i bend down to tie my shoes.
i have had a couple weird dizzies.  once when i bent down to pet eda, i got really dizzy and stumbled when i stood up.  the other one was similar.  bent down for something and felt super dizzy when i stood up... i will ask the doctor about this!

MOVEMENT     i read that moms who have already had babies can sometimes feel movement around week 14.  i was told that since the placenta is attached near the front, it will probably be a bit longer than average before i can feel any movement.

SLEEP     i can still sleep a LOT if i want to (which is yes).  but i am functional with the regular amount these days.

FAVORITE THINGS THIS WEEK     (i'm starting to think i should have labeled this one just "things this week")
arley is starting to catch on to this crying thing, i think.  whenever something happens on tv or real life or in a song, etc, arley sneakily (so he thinks) side eyes me and waits for it.
all this nursery cleaning (still no nursery in sight) has me all excited to actually turn it into a nursery.  i am currently drawing out to scale plans so i can see how all the things i think i want in there will fit. not overboard at all...
i had my birthday on sunday.  i got some fancy packages from my favorite family (you know, my family), and was so excited to see my lost christmas stocking that, yes, i started crying yet again.

LOOKING FORWARD TO     another appointment on thursday (week 15).  i think no ultrasound this time.  maybe just the doppler to listen to the heart rate (they couldn't find it for more than a second for the last appointment).  so fingers crossed for better luck this time!
nurseries!  they're all i think about.  all i dream about.  all i want to talk about.  i'm sure everyone just LOVES it.

FUN FACT     kidneys are making urine, and liver and spleen are doing their jobs too.  baby is probably sucking its thumb and wiggling its toes.

eda is getting pretty serious about this all.  and i'm 90% sure she has no idea what she's so serious about.

13 weeks

31. dec

BABY'S SIZE     a peach!

WEIGHT GAIN     my scale still says the same range that it has been the last few weeks...

HOW I'M FEELING     better and better.  still tired though.  lots of aches and pains - weird little cramps when i cough/sneeze, or move a certain way.  they say these are ligaments and muscles and uterus stretching and growing and making room for the little peach.

WHAT I'M EATING     on thursday i ate two RAW carrots!  my first plain, raw veggies that i've liked since the nausea set in at about week 6.  i've even eaten a salad or two!  spinach.  it has been tasting pretty delicious.

HOW I'M CHANGING     same poochy baby belly from last week, it feels like.
at work the other night i walked by this lady who was charting.  she looked up and was just kind of looking at my stomach and said, "oh ya, you're pregnant aren't you?"  i said, "i know, i'm starting to get kind of poochy, huh."  she said, ".........no...?"

MOVEMENT     n/a

SLEEP     still sleeping a lot.  i think it's getting a little excessive.  i felt kind of gross at the beginning of the week, and then i stopped sleeping AS much, and i've felt a lot better.  also, we put a lot more effort than we have been the past week or two in making delicious food, which probably helps.

FAVORITE THINGS THIS WEEK     we have been watching Lord of the Rings, because i think i've only seen one.  and that is unacceptable, according to arley.  we just got through the second one.  it's getting very emotional.  there was a battle, where the bad guys were coming for the good guys, who were in a fortress thing, backed up against a mountain.  it was supposed to be this impenetrable fortress with caves to hide in and everything was no big deal.  but THEN they found out that tens of thousands of the bad guys were coming, and there weren't so many good guys.  so they were just kind of preparing to die.  depressing, i know.  but THEN! the elves came (who were supposed to be leaving to some safe land where they would stay immortal and blah blah). and i couldn't even handle it.  i just started sobbing.
i'm sure you can imagine, but again, arley was completely bewildered.  and he laughed at me very much.

LOOKING FORWARD TO     a nursery.  although kind of sad about the room that it will be going in.  full to the ceiling with crap we don't know what to do with, but don't actually want to get rid of.  my job this week.

FUN FACT     baby has fingerprints!

12 weeks

24. dec

BABY'S SIZE     a plum!

WEIGHT GAIN     still kind of the same

HOW I'M FEELING     only 20 percent nausea left.  yeeeaaahh!  still tired, but i think overall, i'm feeling a little better

WHAT I'M EATING     i had my first craving, rather than just aversions.  it's very embarrassing.
i was at work, and had forgotten my lunch.  so i ran down to subway really quick (which normally, i prefer to stay away from...) and saw that they had.... BOLOGNA.  it was so grossly delicious that i got it two nights in a row...

HOW I'M CHANGING     my bloatiness is starting to look like a poochy baby belly!

MOVEMENT     n/a

SLEEP     i still want to sleep all the time.  but i've been doing a few less naps a week, i think.

FAVORITE worst THINGS THIS WEEK     i totally lost it this week.  we were going to go to breakfast because i had been thinking about these cheesy potatoes all week.  eda wanted to come too. so arley put her leash on since she has been running out in the street.  she always gets Super excited and so was pulling all over the place.  arley gave me her leash so he could put on his coat and eda pulled and smashed my hand against the doorframe (because i was standing in a doorway...).  and i got kind of sad because it really hurt my hand.  so we finally got out the door and got eda safely stowed in the back of the 4runner.  i got in to start the car and left the door open.  suddenly arley was sweeping all this super fine powdery snow across the windshield and Everything was blowing in on me.  i was screaming (i'm not even kidding about the 'screaming' part) at arley to stop, but apparently he didn't hear me and i got completely soaked (this is albuquerque, where snow is Barely 32 degrees, so it melts instantly).  i immediately started sobbing and jumped out of the 4runner and slammed the door.  i stomped inside while i screamed at arley, "I'M NOT GOING ANYMORE!" and slammed the door to the house.  then i stomped through the house and starting taking off my wet clothes and throwing them across the bedroom.  arley came it and asked what was wrong - he was so bewildered.  i was sobbing and sobbing and i told him that my hand hurt and he got me wet because he was sweeping the snow on me and that i wasn't going to breakfast anymore.  i'm pretty sure he was trying not to laugh the whole time.  somehow, through all my hysterical crying, he got me to get some new clothes on and we made it to the restaurant.  and then i came back to my senses....

later in the week:  i was at work charting, and i randomly had a memory of the cinnamon rolls at prairie rose.  and it made me cry.

LOOKING FORWARD TO     in a few weeks we have an anatomy screening (i can't remember exactly what it's called).  we already got to see some anatomy (kidneys, heart, brain, etc) at this week's ultrasound, but i'm excited to see how baby changes over the next month or so.

FUN FACT     baby is developing reflexes - if you poked it, you would see movement.
on our ultrasound, the nurse had me rub my belly to try to get baby to move into the right position.  baby definitely moved in response, but never into that perfect profile position.  also it had its little legs crossed the whole time!  it was so cute, we could see it kind of wave its arms and legs and jump up, and then kind of float down - over and over.

12 weeks and 1 day.  also: retro kitchen.